If I were to say that I am good at what I do, that would be a lie.
I am struggling, constantly. I can’t keep up with the demands of life.
I am trying to be the perfect parent but I am failing.
I want to set a good example but I am falling apart.
Ripping at the seams, I can’t continue with this façade.
Everything is not okay.
If I took out an ad in the paper, it would read:
“Single mother of one seeking a reset button, advice, support, and companionship.”
Would anyone answer?
People say I am spreading myself to thin but what can I do?
My daughter and I need money to survive, therefore I work.
We need more money to survive, therefore I go to school.
Am I doing too much? Damn right. Knowing is half the battle.
The other half, making changes.
What can I do differently? I ask myself that every day.
Why is there no guidebook to motherhood?